The ultimate love test...

"At the start of a new relationship it all comes easily. That's why it's the start: the Universe breaks you in gently. All beginnings are gentle, but especially the beginnings of love, because love is the most important lesson and the Universe wants you to succeed.

But just because it's easy at the start, don't expect it to stay that way. The Universe will begin to load you up with harder lessons and tests to give you a real understanding of the long-term process that is love. You'll find that continuing to love someone in the same way that you did at the beginning of the relationship is impossible. Instead, allow each moment to have its corresponding 'love' equivalent. Each moment is as unique as each love.

Now you are on a steep love-learning curve. Loving seems to get harder and harder. Eventually, though, it will start to get easier. Love is designed this way because we are all here to learn how to love. We start off with our families, and our platonic intimates then move on to our romantic and sexual partners. The ultimate love test is to extend our love to every person and being in existence. The great masters of love have reached this level."

 I've definitely been in love - twice. But, looking back on those specific "loves," I don't think I loved the way that I should have or even felt the love that I should have. The beginnings of a relationship are some of the best times - plenty of laughter, lots of emotion, and can't seem to get enough of the other person. Then, there is that first fight...that first time they annoy you, the first time that they do something that you didn't approve of or appreciate, etc. These are the things that make us stronger in ourselves and with love. If we are able to look through those specific "negative" things and try to turn them into a positive, well, then there is the true and unleashed love everyone looks for. It's not going to happen right away or with everyone you have a relationship with, of course, but is it worth it within time?


I think that's my problem sometimes. I see specific things in people that I don't appreciate or like and it drives me away. I think that there will be someone better for me or more "perfect." Well, there lies my inner negativity. I am working on becoming more accepting and listening to others perspectives to try and understand. Then, if I am able to understand and accept them for who they are, it will get me that much closer to "the one." I am trying to remind myself that lessons and tests are coming at me everyday and I need to breathe and get through them as best I can.


Is love worth it to you? Is the love you have for that certain someone enough? Enough to get you through every single day, years down the road through the hardships? Are the specific things that drive you crazy about that person exceed the things that maybe you don't like so much? I plan on continuing to ask myself these questions as I grow in love with people. Only then will I be able to grow as a person and learn what love is and the kind of love I want to give and receive for years to come.


"Each moment is as unique as each love." I might not show it all the time, but I am a firm believer in the small moments in a relationship are greater than the bigger things; calling someone just to say "I love you," stopping for just a moment during my busy day to give them a long, loving kiss, etc. My mind and my life goes a mile a minute and I have been told that I am not great at giving the small things - but I do believe in them. I do believe it helps guide a relationship through the tough times. I just need to stop myself and think about what's in front of me instead of tomorrow, a week from now, or even a year from now. 


I am ready to be at the great level with someone. I want to be so in love with someone that I can't imagine another day without them. But, first, I need to, "belong to myself. Then and only then can I properly give myself to someone else."